been a while

So I've been trying to the life thing, apparently I'm still not that good at it. I did get my yellow belt in Krav Maga. Least I did something right. I don't know just feeling a little down I guess. I am tired of my heart having a revolving door. A guy enters it and after seeing what's there and quickly leaving, not even friends. One of these days I will learn to stop being so trusting and open. I should probably just go watch He's Just Not That Into You, and take notes.

On a positive note I have lost weight, feel better health wise, have great real friends, and yeah I running out of positive things ...

Been a while

Sorry just been meaning to blog but kept forgetting. I have lost around 124lbs. Yay!!! I feel better, I am doing more. I take Krav Maga classes. Its the Israeli Military Self Defense. Its really intense. I have been at it since mid April. Its helping me a lot, both physically and mentally. I think my confidence is slowly but surely coming back. I now wear a size 18 in pants and an XL in shirts. I've come a long way from size 34 and 5 or 6X. I am starting to feel like a normal person. I know I still have a ways to go but I'm not frustrated over it.

Bandiversary

So a year ago today my life changed for the best. I had my lapband surgery March 18, 2008. I am still amazed with it. I think at this point I should name my band. I will have to think of some great names. So I have now lost around 115lbs. I feel great but some days I have my down days when I look in the mirror and still see the same person that was there a year ago. I know its crazy. I am now finding that I have to deal with new things. Things like learning how to take a compliment. This is the most difficult thing for me to get over. After years of not getting compliments then all of sudden there they are. Who could change over night to deal with it. But I am trying. I learned to smile and simply say "thank you" altough sometime and occasional "you need glasses" or "liar!" will slip out So that's what's on my mind today.

100!!!

One 100lbs gone before my goal date. I am very happy about that. New goal, 50lbs before my birthday in September.

New Year

March 12, 2009 will be my bandiversary. I hoping to have lost 100lbs by that date. Right now I am at 91lbs. I have been on vacation from work, so I haven't been working out as much either. I've lost about 3 pounds the past 2 weeks. I am happy with that.

So yesterday I went to see Zach and Miri Make a Porno. I loved it. Lots of LOL momments. If the theater had been empty, I'm sure I would have snort laughed. Thank you Kevin Smith. Yesterday also marked the 91lb accomplishment. So I took a quick pic in the car.

86lbs!!!

I lost 2lbs over Thanksgiving weekend, how did that happen??

new jeans

So today was the first day I wore my new levis, I haven't worn levis in like 3 or 4 years.